☽

its hard to be the only one

who knows exactly

what your friends are feeling

who knows their flaws

who knows their story

or even their tendency to

commit a suicide

somehow

its become your responsibility

sometimes

you feel anxious

about whats gonna happen to them

sometimes

you feel tired to hear them

because you have

your flaws too

you have so much to bear too

you feel angsty

when they're on their downs

you really feel if something happened to them

it would be your guilt

everyone will give the blame on you

even yourself

but,

if the worst thing happen

it is definitely not your fault

its a destiny

after all,

you tried your best though.