december's notes (last pieces of you)

//☽

you won't ever know

how desperately i am

to be alive again

i mean

i am physically alive

but, mentally and emotionally,

i am already out of the world.

//𓁷

are you still up right now?

are you staring at the ceiling right now?

cause i did

are you thinking about our future together?

cause i did

i cannot help myself to go asleep

without thinking about you,

its kinda lame to admit,

but i did.

//𓁷

i want you to sit next to me in every road trip

i want you to be next with me when everything gets hard

i want you to stand by me when the world started against us

i want to stay for you, everytime and everywhere.

//𓁷

used to be without you

the love song i used to listen to

is not for you anymore

the blueprint i used to lookup to

has no meaning at all

and the book character i used to associated to you is

not as exciting as before

and the boy in my story,

won't be about you anymore.