Quiet Celebration

Just because i hate my birthday, it doesnt mean that everyone hate their birthday too.

I feel like there is so many reason for me to hate my birthday.

Instead of preparing myself for receiving gifts from anyone. Its more often that i would overthink too much about what should i give for them. Should it be a cake, snacks, stationery or any other cute stuff?

Its not me against birthday celebration 'thingy'. And i am not making it about right/wrong. Maybe its just didnt fit my personality. Or maybe there is something wrong with me? Idk.

To me, its just too much to think about. You should think about something nice to wear in your birthday. Where the party is gonna be held. What kind of makeup style, what theme color for the day. And so on.

For me, i love a quiet yet thoughtful celebration. I want something simple, warm and something that could makes me feel loved. That is it. Wearing pajamas, ordering our favorite dish, having deep conversation, and make du'a for each other genuinely.

I dont need grand gesture, i want tiny meaningful move.

Actually, its not even about the birthday party. Its about celebrating my existence that really matter to me.

11.22 p.m, 27th of august 2024.